I’m sorry that I haven’t been here for a
while. I’ve been feeling a bit blue
lately…and whenever that happens I tend to withdraw from all that I usually
am a part of. I apologize if I worried
any of you. That was absolutely not my
intention. In order to boost my mood,
I’ve been doing a lot of purging. Bathroom cabinets, children’s clothing, you name it. I’ve really only dialed-up long enough to
check email and see what’s going on with the family at large.
So tonight when I logged into my email
& saw a note from Running2Ks, I must admit I felt a pang of guilt. I really hadn’t noticed how long it’d been
since I’d posted anything. Thank you for
reminding me that I am not alone in the world. It is so easy for all my old childhood insecurities to convince me that
no one will notice if I slip away. Again, thank you.
So I guess with all of that said, I
should post some sort of an update.
Hmmm… Where to begin. Chris has been working non-stop – both with
Shaun and on the house. We’re
desperately trying to get it ready for company. Chris’ mom, Lynne, is coming for the holiday. His older brother Steve will also be flying
down with Elisabeth, his wife, and their two dear daughters, Shelby and
Sarah. Sadly, for us Steve et al will be
staying an hour away at Elisabeth’s mom’s house; so we will only be enjoying
their company for a couple of days. But
I guess a little amount of time is far better than none at all.
Lynne, on the other hand will be staying
with us for 6 days. And while she
graciously says that we shouldn’t feel the need to clean for her; she is still
my mother in law. And like it or not,
there are certain face-saving obligations that go along with that
relationship. It’s still going to be
great to see her!
So, I suppose that’s another aspect of
my life that’s had me somewhat preoccupied.
As for the girls:
Maya’s her normal sweet, smart
self. Her discipline with school work is
truly to be commended. Of course, she
missed the school bus this morning and had to awaken Chris to drive her in to Prescott . I think it will be a while before that
happens again. I guess even the smartest
among us can make mistakes.
Kajsa’s just plodding along hitting
milestone after milestone. Her
vocabulary is simply growing by leaps and bounds. It is an amazing process to behold. She knows most of her colors and shapes, can
count to sixteen, and is working hard to grasp the alphabet. Today she told me that I was “So funny.” And yesterday she mastered making horsy
noises with her lips and voice.
Today was Kajsa’s Dialysis
appointment. I found out that she is to
be listed for transplant next Wednesday. I was also informed that this may be overkill, as our transplant social
worker has apparently received numerous phone calls from family members who are
interested in volunteering for donor testing. (Oh yeah, I was crying at Dialysis again. But it’s so nice when they are tears of
immense awe and wonder at the beauty of the human spirit.) They [the potential donors] have asked to
remain anonymous. I can only assume that
this is to avoid disappointing us if there is not a “good” match found. I just want to say, I could never be
disappointed. I don’t know how many of
you there are. I additionally don’t know
who among you has made this truly awesome gesture. But I must say that I am more than thankful. Even if no “good” match is found within the
group of live donors, I will always be deeply, deeply grateful.
Practically speaking, after Julie has
listed Kajsa; Sandra will begin the process to gain approval for the workups of
any and all potential live donors.
So I guess to sum up. People are great. I am tired and feeling the seasonal
change. The blues are being abated by my
love for my wonderful extended friends and family. Maya rocks. Chris is a acing his classes and working hard elsewhere. And Kajsa is still an angel.
Thank you for your patience while I was
out of touch. I suppose now I need to
check in and see how all of you have been. I look forward to hearing all about your recent adventures.